Words to keep me sane

Sometimes the only action you can take is to let go.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Step away from the ledge

Yesterday husband had to talk me down. I was driving home from work and I casually mentioned that I was planning to make a stop at Target for some essentials...shampoo, deodorant, HPTs. He immediately and strenuously objected, much to my suprise. I am 5dp5dt today, or 10 dpo. If there was something to see, I think I could have seen it this morning. He was having none of it. He wants to wait until Saturday. Now I'm not a pee stick freak. I have had my fair share of run-ins with them, but in all the time that we have been trying and with our multiple losses, it has been inevitable. So here I sit, 3 1/2 days away from my beta (I would say 4 days but it is early on Monday morning ;)and I am itching to know. That is the type of person I am. Be it good news or bad, I like to be let off the hook. Husband admitted that he, on the other hand, prefers the ignorant "bliss" of not knowing for as long as possible. How or why he thinks this is pleasant I don't know. He is so NOT ready to know, in fact, that he volunteered to make my Target run for me. He even bought me the mascara I needed (with cell phone guidance provided by me, of course). I am currently bargaining with him that since I wanted to test today and he wants to test on Saturday, that tomorrow is a perfect compromise. He said we'll talk about it tonight. :) I have acupuncture after work so I will most likely be in a very zen and "come what may" mindset for at least a few hours. Then the battle of wills will likely be on again.


Geohde said...

I would have tested. But then again, I struggle NOT to pee on a stick every time I have wee in my bladder. Force of habit!

Good luck with your negotiated test date,


Grad3 said...

I so would have tested- and then just not told him. Of course then it would be really hard to NOT say anything. Which leads to getting you into trouble because you said you wouldn't do it. Why can't they just let us do what we want???

I hope your will wins ;) Cheering you on and thinking of you!

Pamela Jeanne said...

I had fun imagining you talking him through the mascara aisle at Target. Enjoy your acupuncture and, of course, best of luck with the pee stick -- regardless of which day you put it to work.

gracechild said...

hello. I hope my comment doesnt upset you but in my first & last support group meeting, we talked about acupuncture & doc said from med studies/statistics. acupuncture is good before transfer but not advisable for next few weeks post transfer & one of the two acupuncturist in this city will not perform a session for weeks after transfer. just thot its something you may want to check up on

A said...

I'm not sure I would have been able to resists. Of course I have a stash of HPTs under the counter already.

Good luck with the compromising and even better luck with the testing!!!